This weekend, I visited my best friend in high school for his "guys baby shower" (which involved a lot more beer than baby gifts), after not spending time with him for 2 years. But I realized that maybe we've begun to fall out. Its made me think about where my life is headed.
I probably didn't mention this earlier, but during the last week of December, my dad had a near fatal heart attack (his heart actually stopped 4 times). He has made quite a swift recovery, and is now pretty much back to normal conditions. Albiet with small permenant heart damage. To think that without great medical care or even 15 minutes more time, he might not be alive now; It makes me question the mortality of things. Thank god for St. Louis having very good hospitals. Losing my father at this point would be devastating. He still gets upset easily and yells too much.
Heres something I wrote today that pretty much sums up my feelings about God. Sorry this is so long, but I know how much you guys like reading and writing.
"I've realized a lot of things today. The power to change yourself, and make a difference in the lives of others, is within us all. But without realizing a need, this power will fade. I believe that finding that need is the closest we can get to accepting "God" in this mortal world. I hope everyone finds their need."
