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« on: November 18, 2007, 11:52:24 PM »
i'm sure you can guess with what.
Looking over the past few months and I don’t want to believe it, but believe it I must. I still want to believe that he’ll be back. He’s never coming back. I’ll visit him someday, but he will never be able to visit us again. Moving onto college didn’t hit me until I head the news. The first, and I wish I could say only, time that I cried in my dorm room was because I had to face some truth, I’d never read his words again. I sign on every day, wanting to see a bit of his wit. Pausing when I give my self the chance and being it with reality. We’ve had a few conversations off the board, now I’m really wishing there were more. I get flashes of a message I once sent him. I wrote a story pairing his name to a pretty kitty watching a panther escape through her window. I feel tears threatening to surface, but none quite making the jump through my eyes. I miss the connection we never had and the comments we we would always laugh about once he had written them. I still don’t want to believe it, but he’s never coming back.