TK, my first thought to that is that it's different between guys and girls, physically at least. but then i think about when i have been physically one way and mentally another. and that's what's hard with this. i dont know how to get that across in combination with everything else. then to make it harder, those that i usually turn to with my writing to work through stuff are too close to the topic in the sense that a) i'm dating one of them and i dont want him to over think it or b) they're friends who are so close that they'd start to feel protective and might think too hard on it.
now i'm rereading your post and wondering if what i'm saying is even relevant to what you're saying. but i think i've also been on the other side, not quite in your position, but still on the other side. adding another element to make this hard to write. i also can't explain too much cuz this can really quickly tread on tmi, even with one of my closest friends. i am adding and doing some editing, i'll see how i feel about posting it again when i've looked at it some more.