It may be of small comfort to you, but even though you had to drive under the influence, I feel that you did the right thing.
I think that your friend is confused. Trust me, I know how frustrating it can be when you have what is to you a blatantly
obvious answer to the questions of a relationship, and the other person just can't seem to get there. It's maddening.
There's really nothing you can do to bring that person to a less confused state, either. To try do so just frustrates the two
of you.
Alcohol and such a confused state really only make the person more confused. The mixed signals come fast and furious after
a drink or two, and to act on them would only bring heartache.
Now speaking as a very old person who has had his heart broken more times than he cares to remember, please let me offer
some advice and please feel free to ignore it completely if it doesn't fit. I really won't mind if you do so. ;-)
Methinks that you should begin to look elsewhere for a less confused person. Maybe, in time, your ladyfriend may come to the
conclusion that you ARE the one for her, perhaps not. But on NO ACCOUNT should you put your life on hold to wait for such
a decision. Life is too short and too precious to be wasted "waiting for an answer". In my 42+ years on this earth, I've
never received the answer that I wanted. You could be different though. Like I said before, feel free to toss this in the rubbish.
You're a great person, and someone, somewhere will see that in the future. She may not even be anyone you know now or
expect. These things seem to revel in serendipity (A word I love, btw) and blindside you when you least expect it.
All this doesn't ease any of the pain in your heart, I'm sure. That takes time. Just do the best to have fun and live life to the
fullest. Enjoy yourself. If that person doesn't want to be with you, then just move on and don't let it stain you.
You WILL meet better people. I am certain of this. Being happy and having fun attracts more happiness and fun (It works like a
charm for me!).
Take care mate, even if you think I'm full of hot air, I still wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.
Sincerely,
-Kama-