First, a little back story. I really hated high school. It wasn't so much that I hated the people, though I did hate a lot of them; it's that I hated the entity of high school as a whole. Even the stuff that most people enjoyed like pep rallies, sporting events (both as a audience AND team member) proms and graduation, (which I begged my parents to be allowed to skip), were at best boring wastes of time that I was often times forced to be a part of by the Powers That Be with little more explanation beyond "My absence would be noticed." (Which was kind of the point.) or "You have an obligation to participate in these events." (Who this obligation was to I don't know for sure, so I'm forced to assume it was Cthulhu.) Basically, it was four years of seething contempt for a bunch of people and activities I perceived as shallow, stupid and an insult to my intelligence. I didn't begrudge anyone their right to the high school experience, but I did resent being forced to be a part of it rather than having my wishes respected.
So, that back story in place, my high school reunion is tonight. People keep calling me about it, saying I should go. Now, if I had dropped a ton of weight and gotten filthy rich in the last ten years, basically like Conan the Barbarian, but with money, then I'd absolutely go just so I could be a smug raging cock end to the people I didn't like. It would be petty beyond description, but it would be satisfying, and it's not like I'd see any of these people again.
Unfortunately, I'm still fat and not wealthy. My big concern is being shown up by people I don't like and other awkward situations like that. Also, I'm afraid if I don't go that I might regret it later. I just don't want to willingly go subject myself to high school again in my late twenties, even for a couple of hours. So I have to know, because I know some of you here have already had a reunion come and go. Should I attend?
