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Unwashed Village / A single second
« on: October 24, 2017, 07:51:01 PM »
For most of our lives, time seems monotonous. We get used to things, get into habit and feel a sameness. Sometimes we try to mix things up, travel, try new things to expand our lives. But sometimes a single event, even a single second, out of your control can shatter everything that made you comfortable. A car accident, meeting your future love, winning the lottery, getting a job offer. These can change everything we thought we knew.

What is a moment that had a profound change in your life and why?

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Unwashed Village / The Weeds
« on: April 14, 2016, 08:50:22 AM »
EDIT: There is an important message at the end, I don't you to miss it, so please check that out even if you don't read the rest.
Its late, I don't want to go to sleep yet, and this post will be my 420th post, so I wanted to celebrate by writing a ditty about my thoughts and experiences on the subject of marijuana.  :-\

Just for the record, I'm not high now, but writing while stoned is pretty fun.

Experience

I first tried pot at 16, with my best friend growing up, Tom. We used a small red glass bong in his basement. Looking back, a bong probably wasn't the best idea for a first-timer, since they are one of the most effective means of getting high (and overdoing it). We also did like, 4 bowls, way too much honestly. I remember not feeling anything immediately; This commonly happens when someone tries it for the first time. We sat in his basement for about 15 minutes, I asked him when it would hit me, "soon enough just wait" he said, and then it fucking hit me like a train. I distinctly remember the visual hallucinations I first experienced; my vision was spinning, and the in the middle was a thin ring of colors; Imagine if you were surrounded by Saturn's rings, it was kinda like that. I also freaked the fuck out; I had never experienced a change in perception like this before, and was wondering if it would be permanent . Eventually I calmed down, we watched Across the Universe and I went home feeling relaxed. It was a horrowing memory though.

During high school, I got more excited about the thought of being high, than I actually cared about being high. How your perception could change, and everything would be more awesome was so exciting to teenage me. I did it a few more times, but due to being involved with sports and other things I didn't do it habitually in highschool.

The summer after highschool, I felt lost about life and started hanging out with the wrong crowd; skater kids who smoked a lot of weed, didn't have jobs, and stole to get drug money. I pressured my friends into trying it. That felt like such a long, emotional, life-changing 3 months. I was sad about ending highschool, and about how things turned out, and weed helped me cope. But by the end, I knew it was a problem that I couldn't take with me to college. I went to college, took myself very seriously and didn't do it at all... Until just before I left.

I was at college in Kansas City for 3 semesters, but changed my major and left basically on a whim, literally on the very last day. Thats a whole 'nother story, but weed eventually caught up with me again. Long story short, I did it increasingly more and more until I was smoking Kush (the strong stuff, I'll elaborate on that below) multiple times a day, spending thousands a year. I remember going to work high as a kite everyday during that summer; Since I was the only employee besides the store owner, I can't help but think he noticed but he never called me out on it. I also had to deal directly with customers; This was often difficult, and a few times I had to deal with people that I knew, and completely embarrassed myself. Looking back, I should have quit my job and gotten help.

Coming to today, I still smoke occasionally, but its manageable and not something I often desire to do anymore.

If this story seems dark, which wasn't my intention really, understand that weed is a drug, and like any drug (including coffee, natural chemicals like endorphins and prescription meds) can become addictive and life controlling.

Thoughts
Here are a few key points that you should know about weed, even if you never do it.
1. The kind sold today is much more potent than what was around 10,20 or 30 years ago. Its almost like a whole different drug, with a more euphoric high. Its also much more expensive ($20/gram vs $5-10/gram I used to pay in highschool). Its become more popular because it carries higher profit margins, and you need much less to get high.
2. There are 3 distinct and documented states of marijuana effect; Buzzed, high, and stoned. How you feel during them is very literal.
3. Marijuana is unique among drugs because it is not a pure stimulant, hallucinogen or depressant; It has mild effects of each and nearly no hangover, which is why its so popular
4. Marijuana is the biggest cash crop in the U.S., partly because of the aforementioned huge profit margins
5. In my experience, driving while high is much safer than while drunk, but should obviously still be avoided
6. While weed has pain & anxiety relieving effects and low risk of dependency, I firmly believe that it should not be considered a "medicine" due to how much it affects your perception and ability to focus safely
7. Patterns can seem easier to recognize while high. While visual hallucinations can happen, they are rare.

Well thats all I have to say about that, guys. Hope someone enjoyed this.

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Also, on an unrelated note, I have been strongly considering taking a hiatus from posting on the Village (it won't be the first time I've thought about leaving, heh). So, consider this my formal statement of hiatus. I'm not leaving for good, i'll still check occasionally, and be back at some point, but there comes a time when you feel like everything that needs to be said has been said, and thats how I feel now (and yet still nothing has made it to BC's signature!). For over 10 years, this has been my little niche community, a place that grew up along with the internet, and nearly died with the downfall of message boards. Remember that after Fallout, our community was still bonded by our love for free thinking, creativity and writing, and thats why we still exist. What you say to a stranger on the internet, they may remember long after they've forgotten who you were. And for the handful of new members brought by the recent Fallout releases, enjoy yourself and despite the pitchforks and tangerines, everyone is welcome here. The bungie chord is real.

-Killmod

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Unwashed Village / FEELIN' THE BERN 2016
« on: April 12, 2016, 05:47:14 PM »
 8) 8) :P :P :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: :laugh: ;D ;D
the bernWHO ELSE IS REALLY FEELIN' IT
the bern
 :D :D :D :D :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:

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Unwashed Village / Happy first day of spring!
« on: March 20, 2016, 04:34:00 PM »
A time for rebirth and thawing ideas, of clean and pureness.

Also, I really love dogwoods. Those trees that flower beautiful pink before anything else, but only last a week or so before blowing away. Really hits hard about a natural lesson for patience or something.

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Unwashed Village / Health Insurance
« on: March 06, 2016, 06:14:12 AM »
I met an exchange student from Germany yesterday, and we talked for a bit. "I haven't had health insurance for 5 years at least" I admitted, and he said "I can't remember a time when I didn't have it."

For a long time, my parents couldn't afford health insurance. Thanks to the affordable care act (I get kinda pissed when people call it "Obamacare") they finally got covered this year, but now i'm too old to be covered under theirs. The company I work for offers insurance, but its not very good and wasn't worth the cut from my monthly paycheck for something I might not use every month. As a student working part time, I simply can't afford it, I think that I am exempt from the uninsured-fine anyway. Speaking of that, forcing your citizens to pay for something many of them can't afford by threatening them with a major fine sounds absolutely insane to me!

Life is full of dilemmas, but I don't want my health to be one of them. To the international villagers, let me tell you firsthand; while the U.S. may have some of the best healthcare in the world, good affordable coverage is still an unobtainable luxury to many, and a nightmare to some. Hospitals here WILL send you away if you have nothing. When asked why ours can't be like Canada or Europe, almost everyone says "Well... I hear you have to wait a long time to get treatment" or "its not as safe as ours", which I have trouble blindly believing.

How does everyone feel about your health insurance?

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Unwashed Village / Happy Leap Day!
« on: February 29, 2016, 03:13:34 PM »
Its a day that only comes once every 4 years.

Anything you've been meaning to get to, but haven't had time?

Edit: How are those New Years resolutions going?

I'm trying to get back in shape this year.

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http://www.businessinsider.com/most-violent-cities-in-each-state-2016-1

We are in fact not all a bunch of wife beating-rapist-meth heads (we just have the most of them per capita)

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Unwashed Village / Worlds Largest Powerball Lottery 3 Way Split
« on: January 14, 2016, 06:36:58 PM »
http://www.reuters.com/article/us-usa-powerball-idUSKCN0UR2KD20160114

Welp, I didn't win the $1.5 BN lottery this year.  :P There were 3 winning tickets sold in Tennessee, California and Florida.  As of writing it hasn't been confirmed that any of the winners claimed their tickets. I'm still not quite sure how tickets with the same numbers can be sold in 3 different states.

Interestingly, I also read yesterday that each year over a hundred people don't claim tickets worth over a million dollars each.

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Unwashed Village / Its 2016
« on: January 02, 2016, 06:54:11 PM »
That wonderful week between Christmas and the new year is over. Its 2016 now! Fallout 1 was released 19 years ago this September.

What do you hope to do this year?

What world events do you see taking place?

Will you finally get in shape this year?

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Unwashed Village / Happy First Day of Winter!
« on: December 20, 2015, 12:51:57 AM »
Its Winter

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Unwashed Village / Advertisements
« on: December 08, 2015, 05:28:03 AM »
There are only a few things which I deeply hate with an absolute passion, and advertisements are one of them (tipping in restaurants is another, but thats a whole 'nother story). Basically, I think that all ads are a remnants of old technology business models. Marketing directly to consumers made a lot of sense when most people lived in rural areas and had limited exposure to a growing personal products market. Ad revenue supported the new "free" TV and radio broadcasts, so even if people didn't like it, them tolerated them because the technology was life-changing and was publicly available to any who could receive them.

The problem is, that ads have become so engrained and accepted, that the industry refuses to change even if they purpose they serve is no longer necessary. I would even say the purpose has changed completely; its no longer about directly marketing, but instead subliminally changing our habits to spend more money in general, by disguising ads as part of the entertainment. Most people in the U.S. have moved to cities, where they can go to different stores and compare different brands in person. The internet allows anyone to compare and buy nearly anything imaginable. Cable TV  has been charging monthly fees for decades, and while you could argue that the content has been greatly improved, ad lengths have increased slightly rather than disappearing. It seems absurd to expect someone to pay ever increasing monthly fees and still have 1/4th of their show be content they don't want to watch. Even with technology that allows us to skip ads such as DVR, ads are still abundant and annoying.

With internet sites such as youtube or twitch, I see things differently. I know exactly who the money is going to, in most cases not a multibillion dollar company (er except for the content hosts), but to a smaller entity who will spend most of the revenue to create new content.

I understand that ad marketing is a huge field, but maybe they've outlived their purpose. In the end, the consumer is always fighting for fairness. I only have so many seconds of life, I want to spend as few of them as possible trying to be convinced to spend my money on something I've never heard of, can't afford, don't need,  or don't want.

...BUT I don't think there is any easy solution for getting rid of them. They still fund most content available, and most people would agree that they are necessary. However, things such as Netflix and Spotify prove that we indeed have the technology now for consumers to pay directly for content and eliminate ads.

What do you think?

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Unwashed Village / Haze
« on: November 23, 2015, 06:19:06 PM »
I slugged that last beer
the familiar vibrations
vision blurs
like sand falling through hand
hard to grasp.

laying down
aching sides
take 2 ibuprofen
maybe 3
but never 4
the headache never really goes away

lighting another blunt
huddled in the corner
like a slave
the chilly Missoura autumn wind unravels
the mysteries hidden within that brown paper
"Theatre Vision"
The joy of watching a movie
but the movie is you
and it reminds me
wherever I am
I'm still here

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Unwashed Village / Happy first day of Autumn 2015!
« on: September 23, 2015, 05:48:48 PM »
Except for our southern hemisphere friends.

What is your favorite thing to do in Autumn?

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Unwashed Village / Stop right there criminal scum!
« on: September 21, 2015, 06:14:58 AM »
Has anyone played the Elder Scrolls series?

There are some pretty intricate Oblivion sex mods

Hopefully the next game will take place is Elseweyre and focus on the Khajit

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Unwashed Village / Waking up and everythings different
« on: September 13, 2015, 05:32:28 PM »
Have you ever woken up one morning, and decided to make a life altering decision?

Okay, it doesn't have to be in the morning, but was there ever a time when you decided things weren't working and you made a huge change in your life? Anything that made you inspired or scared?

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